Thursday, August 18, 2011

I saw a sign

a blog & personal testimony:
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I have secretly been going through quarter-life crisis and feeling stressed.
as you can see, a lot has 'changed' in just the past year.
one of my biggest secret was that I was going to start my own clothing line with a friend.
however, with the market and other factors, it's just not the right time.
then last night, with the move and wedding on my mind, I couldn't sleep.
and the real truth was, I was feeling a distance from my faith and God.
it's funny how the best ideas always come to me at 2 am.
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it was at that moment, I snapped out of it. 
I was ashamed for feeling stressed lately.
I realized I was caught up on my own life, and feeling empty
because material desires are never satiating.
I decided to live my life 100% for others from that moment on.
I've considered it before, but now I knew how.
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with the move and all, it's a fresh start!
I decided I am going to stop freelancing.
initially, I thought about applying to Compassion for a full time job.
(it is a child sponsorship organization, dedicated to long-term development of children living in poverty around the world.)
but then again, God must have given me a passion for art+design for a reason!
so starting after the move, I will have an in-house studio for my etsy shop,
and all profits, excluding material costs, will go towards Compassion International.
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it should be really fun for me, no buyers remorse for the buyer,
and mostly, good for the children who need the profits more than me.
now that I wrote this on my blog, it will keep me accountable in following through!
and I am so blessed/lucky to have an amazing husband to be,
who is so supportive, and I want to thank him for making this plan possible.
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so - when I turned on the computer to brainstorm my plans last night,
the first thing that popped up on my blog was a sign that read:
"looks like your blog became popular enough to get ads!"
sure ads can be annoying, and I doubt my blog will bring in $$$$.
but I saw it as a sign, that God believes I am now starting to act responsibly,
and is giving me his first penny as a confirmation that he's got my back~
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I have absolutely no more feeling of stress.
I'm so glad I remembered how much I love God and his children,
and I am so excited and motivated for my "first day of work" for Compassion next week!!
I'll never feel discouraged again, always be grateful,
and work as hard as I know how to give back~ lastly, much much love to my followers~~*

6 comments:

  1. Trust in God no matter what and you know He'll always provide. that is SO AWESOME of you.

    good luck with EVERYTHING.

    PS - "material things are never satiating" <- doesn't it always come back to this? there are no truer words!

    xx sy

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  2. I'm a fan of your blog and it's great to know that you have a great vision in life!

    Keep it going! :)

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  3. aww good stuff Patty!
    keep inspiring :)
    xoxo

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  4. I came across this the other day while watching tv and thought u would be interested. - http://www.cathouseonthekings.com/

    Also, this sounds so great! Keep ur readers updated!

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  5. pattie thats awesome! I've always wanted to work at compassion~

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  6. at a stressful time I came upon your post and was inspired...thank you!

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