I saw a sign

a blog & personal testimony:

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I have secretly been going through quarter-life crisis and feeling stressed.

as you can see, a lot has 'changed' in just the past year.

one of my biggest secret was that I was going to start my own clothing line with a friend.

however, with the market and other factors, it's just not the right time.

then last night, with the move and wedding on my mind, I couldn't sleep.

and the real truth was, I was feeling a distance from my faith and God.

it's funny how the best ideas always come to me at 2 am.

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it was at that moment, I snapped out of it. 

I was ashamed for feeling stressed lately.

I realized I was caught up on my own life, and feeling empty

because material desires are never satiating.

I decided to live my life 100% for others from that moment on.

I've considered it before, but now I knew how.

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with the move and all, it's a fresh start!

I decided I am going to stop freelancing.

initially, I thought about applying to Compassion for a full time job.

(it is a child sponsorship organization, dedicated to long-term development of children living in poverty around the world.)

but then again, God must have given me a passion for art+design for a reason!

so starting after the move, I will have an in-house studio for my etsy shop,

and all profits, excluding material costs, will go towards Compassion International.

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it should be really fun for me, no buyers remorse for the buyer,

and mostly, good for the children who need the profits more than me.

now that I wrote this on my blog, it will keep me accountable in following through!

and I am so blessed/lucky to have an amazing husband to be,

who is so supportive, and I want to thank him for making this plan possible.

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so - when I turned on the computer to brainstorm my plans last night,

the first thing that popped up on my blog was a sign that read:

"looks like your blog became popular enough to get ads!"

sure ads can be annoying, and I doubt my blog will bring in $$$$.

but I saw it as a sign, that God believes I am now starting to act responsibly,

and is giving me his first penny as a confirmation that he's got my back~

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I have absolutely no more feeling of stress.

I'm so glad I remembered how much I love God and his children,

and I am so excited and motivated for my "first day of work" for Compassion next week!!

I'll never feel discouraged again, always be grateful,

and work as hard as I know how to give back~ lastly, much much love to my followers~~*